Everly

 Dear B,  I have been doing okay. However, I do find myself sleeping a lot.  I realized that everyone's life is a little fucked up. So I actually feel grateful for whatever I have. I am very blessed for the love and care I get every single day and honestly some days I wonder what I did to deserve it.  I grew up in a family where love wasn't recognized directly. It was maybe expressed in indirect actions,  such as cut out fruits on the table or simply just living every day life together as a family.  Now, I hear I love yous everyday, I get hugs on demand, cuddles, share my frustrations. It is different and feels very nice.  I am not saying the love I received from my family is any less but it got polluted with lack of boundaries, screaming and shouting at each other, and indirectness. My parents did what they could and I don't have any grudge against them. I have all the resources to me now to heal and improve on the person I am today.  My life is ...

 Dear B, I feel so deeply lost, anxious, sad, and scared. Most of my problems stem from financial issues. I wish I could be calm and collected in front of my husband who is trying his best to afford us together. However, there are times, I just let out my frustrations. I am human and super emotional one at that. I grew up seeing financial hurdles my parents faced and I have seen my mom always being a bitch to him. I never in my whole life wanted to be like my mom. How she caused so much stress in the family and always shouting at us or my dad for not having enough to sustain us. I have seen my dad work so hard for us. I have seen his struggles. I never wanted to be this ungrateful person but this is so hard! It is like my childhood trauma baggage is unfolding again.  The most stable stage in my life was back home, when I had a job. The feeling of independence was something else. Now, I miss it to the core. I am a 28 year old woman, basically a house-wife now and it kills me in...