Everly

 Hey B Something beautiful just happened. Well, I wouldn't want to get your hopes up. It is probably nothing. Just kind of an epiphany of mine. I realized that I don't have to chase love anymore. I can just focus on myself and my life and it will come to me. I don't have to play mind games. I don't have to sit here wondering where is it.  It's such a bullshit that everyone's love is measured in the same parameter. I always have kind of overlooked the stability of things. I always thought love has to be loud, it has to be grand gestures, it has to be expressed and it's not love if it is not shown. Such bullshit you see. People are different and the way they show love or understand love is different. I just want you to know that, I am going give this 'stable love' a chance. Maybe, maybe this was written in the stars for me and I sought everywhere for it.

 Dear B, You know what's ironic? When half the population of the world is celebrating valentines day and I am stuck home pondering over the egg that I just ate, which looked odd. Kind of like fake. Did I just eat a fake egg cooked in some labs? Okay, let's not go there. The point is. I think I am not doing the life thing right. If only there was an instruction manual, telling me what to do to reach to a point of successful completion, I would have followed it and cling to it like a lost puppy in despair. Here I am glued to my bed, with a sinus infection or possibly covid, and I see this awfully awfully romantic couples doing PDA on social media and or pictures of inseparable friendships. I mean I am not stupid, I know what they show on social media is an illusion of perfection. But there has to be at least some truths to it. It may have been a highlight reel but their day was sure eventful compared to mine. I had to re-evaluate my life. What the hell am I doing. I spent the las...