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 Hey B, 

I got a job offer. It is part-time and long distance from my area but it is a start. 

I had gone through a lot emotionally and psychologically that at this point, I will take whatever comes my way. It is not that much of money but it is still something to get my dignity back. 

I am still awaiting responses from other interviews but I said yes to this one for now. My heart said, you should not let go of it. So I listened to my gut and took it. 

I know I can work hard and do better. I know this will help me to reconcile myself and get myself on a track. At least, now I see a path ahead of me. I am not so scared anymore. I know everything will work out at the end. 

There is no gain without pain. I know this long hour bus rides will be tough but I also do know it will give me a purpose to wake up and hustle. I know I will meet new people. I know I will learn something. I am excited for that. 

I am proud of myself that I took charge and showed up for myself and landed me a job. It is not amazing, but it is something and honestly, these days, I'd be crying so hard for that little something to get myself through adulting. 

I have so many little things I want to buy for our little home. I want to visit my homeland too and want to be able to afford myself there. I want to buy presents for people I care for, and most importantly I want to be able to take care of myself. I can't wait to feel that independence. I am so much looking forward to it. 

Thank you for sticking with me through it all. 

I will still update you on my life. I really don't know how it is gonna go! I am already dreading that 1.5 hours of bus ride to office! :(((



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