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Day 73

The lock down will be over soon. However, there is no cure for the virus yet. Vaccines are on test run. I heard a news today, that it will be available mid June, I am not sure if it is valid. There is other news  on TV which said, it is expected that we will get it by November.

I have been feeling hopeful about it. Yes, it would be difficult to get a job, such and such in the next few months. But all I care about now, is as long as my family is safe. I feel so grateful, that I have a roof over my head, I have a minimum wage tutoring job and that I found a mission today.

My current goal is to work towards saving money for traveling. I will try looking into universities abroad meanwhile, but if I save enough and work enough on my current tutoring, I can visit Canada and my niece and my sister and have a retreat. I think I deserve a vacation. Of course, I need to work hard as my pay is minimum, and also it is gonna take me 6 months at least to save that much amount to book a flight. But you know what? I am up for it. I can do this. By six months, hopefully the corona crisis will also be over. I hope.

You know how it came to me? I was taking class with my student this morning, she is a 50 year old married woman, who travels every year, twice with her husband. Talking with her, inspired me. She wants to visit Turkey next, and seeing her talk about all those countries that she visited mesmerized me.

I always wanted a job for myself, where I can earn and travel. I have it. I have flexible hours, the pay is super low but if I put enough time and energy, I can at least travel once a year. And I am working towards this goal now. Regarding the economic situation now, I would rather choose staying home and tutoring online. It is convenient and I could realize my childhood dream with it.

I feel good about myself. I don't need a man to feel sufficient. I am sufficient. Today I came across this post and I think it's super relevant to my mood. It said-

"Never obsess about chasing love. Chase goals. Chase dreams. Chase the behaviors that are going to make you better. You don't chase love, you allow that to find you by accident. And when it finds you on accident, you'll know that it was supposed to find you purposely."
Sylvester McNutt III







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