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Intelligence is the new tits now. When your mind stays sound and crisp, you say all the right things in the right time...you get validated. People like you for making them laugh. Not at you, but at your jokes. Your sarcasm tricks them into thinking, you have a healthy thing going on with yourself.

I had always struggled keeping up. I am the clumsiest version of a princess. The reason I called myself princess is because I always expect people to treat me like one and I literally will cry myself out if someone gets a little bit rude with me. I won't say anything but I'll definitely cry.
It is not that, I am dumb all the time. I have a voice, I just prefer not to use it. In today's world, you are supposed to be vocal about even the slightest inconvenience. 

But I didn't know I was this shy until I came into my university life. Being among friends, lot of them, made me feel, there's this whole part of me, that I don't wanna show them. I found myself to be less interesting. You see, before, I used to think I am anything but blunt.

Your personality can bloom like a flower when you are with the right people. And I have, for sure, changed. Maybe the process is slow but I am not the same person I was before. 
People and circumstances changed me. 
It is also important to keep in mind that, you'll have your down days and your best days. I think everybody goes through it. So the wisest thing to be, is accepting where you're at. Be kind to yourself...Forgive and forget. Embarrassment is an okay deal.
You're only human.

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