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So my exams are all over....I didn't do good this semester, no improvements. Turtle dove on the other hand did a vast, got A's on two of em. Can't believe it is my fifth semester and I haven't got an A yet. Shame, shame.

So yesterday, we went out, we lunched together after ages, some of them in the group I thought were lost. It felt good seeing everyone after so long. It did feel like we caught up what we missed  this whole semester of separateness. I can't believe I am still hung up on singer guy after all the self empowerment shit I pulled. He just. He just effortlessly makes himself attractive to me. I should have kept my expectations high for men...Seriously it is high time I should.

T messaged me last night saying we need to talk and I kinda have a bad feeling on it. She hasn't waken up yet so I don't know. I feel like she has something serious to do with it. I mean I gotta say, I did some back stabbing before, the time when I kind of felt disheartened by her and batman. I kind of wonder if it all comes back. What if she knows something about that and is upset with me. God why am I so insecure about everything. It could be something else. But you know this year I kind of gotten close to her, if somethings happen that brings us apart that would be disappointing. I don't wanna lose friends. I've been without friends since first grade to fourth grade and whenever I remember those times, I feel sad.Just because I was quiet and shy as a kid doesn't mean, I had to go through what I had gone through....So it is always in the back of my mind, what if it happens again?
Ugh I am over thinking it. It could be just one girly gossipy talk, I don't know.
Although she mentioned the person, whom I once back stabbed to, so  it could be that I am fucked.
Either way, I am an adult, I should deal with this without having any childish temper. SO it is better I patch up in a diplomatic way, whatever comes up....

Anyway....I bought a new phone. Had to sign a contract for it with my mom. She said, you have to wake up in the mornings, sleep normal amount and cannot keep up late at nights,  and eat healthy food...She can be cute sometimes.












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