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I smoked, well kinda. Not like a whole cigarette. Just one little smoke. And I don't even know if I did it right. Didn't get what the fuzz is all about. Yep. Maybe I didn't do it right.: P

I am not gonna turn into a smoker. Of course not. So no worries. It was just a one time thing.

And today he talked. So I feel kinda good. I hate how I am so obsessed with him, but I can't help it. I need more time.

By the way. This guy in whisper app, turns out he studies in my university but different department and a senior. Didn't share any other personal details. Just chatted. Random flirty things. I am never going to reveal myself. No. If I do, If he does, we might see each other and that would turn into something awkward. He knows some of my secrets. I'll feel vulnerable. So whatever it is not ready yet.

Gosh I feel like lot has happened. My sister is struggling with her masters admission money. She got into a fight with her husband. Family feud. I hate the fact that, Wives have to abide by husband's Guardian's rules. I mean who the fuck are they to have a say in my sister's life? When my own parents aren't intruding, who are they to tell her she has to change? When we don't find faults with their son, tho there is, we keep silent about it, why can't they have this least decency to keep quiet and highlight all the good things and make her feel loved? Just for the sake of a relationship. This is complete bullshit. I feel so bitter now, toward arrange marriage and joint families. I think; nuclear families are for better. Just husband and wife living is perfect.
Gotta sleep. Bye.













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