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I want to break stuff
I am so mad at myself for losing self respect and acting like a complete stupid person in front him.
I don't know what happens to me when he is around. He is intimidating and my brain stops functioning.
Why does he have to be so scary?He isn't God. Maybe it's just me. I should actually start befriending him or you know brother zone him for real. He is....

He is like cupcake. Too much sugar, I should stay away. And any guys who find me attractive are vegetables. I should find and try veggies for a while.
He has broken up with his girlfriend. I should literally stay away. He isn't his usual self. At all. Like. I rarely see him genuinely smile or talk this and that. He has changed. So quickly. I hate break ups. They're so brutal on men. Men find it hard to move on, especially the men who were loyal the whole relationship. And especially, if the girl is pretty like an angel.

I am suffocating. He doesn't even know how much trouble he causes to my mind. Like for real. I can't get over the fact that I idolize him so much so damn much that even I forget to put my priorities upfront. He is wrecking my heart. Didn't wanna sound poetic, but really, he is. I was doing just fine before I met him.

Why did fate betray me like that. Why. WHy. Why can't I stop fancying him, God. Help. Please.

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