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The weather is PURR-FECT today. It's been raining the whole morning. Oh the sound and fresh smell just got me like...really in a nice mood. Anyway.

It's been one hell of a sick week. Brutal. I had to give two presentation yesterday, skipped the quiz because I couldn't take it anymore. And how'd I do? It was so embarrassing. I don't wanna talk about it please. All that matters now is they are over for the semester. And my birthday is coming up this Monday, I am turning 20. Wow. A big step to adulthood. I hate that I wouldn't be an adolescent anymore. I will be an adult pretty soon. No excuse. No childish excuses. Mature. Ladylike 20. That is crazy. I basically want to stay 19 my whole life. I love staying teen. I hate that next year I'll be 21. Time is moving so fast. Oh my god. Please stop before I turn 30.

So tomorrow, I am buying a new phone. My old phone sucks. I've been using it for 3 years now, I am so in need of a new phone so I somehow managed to convince my dad, actually buying it with my own money, my aunt gave me 200 dollars which I saved for the phone. So worth the spending. I don't know I am not so sure what brand I am going to buy, like I am feeling conflicted. Whenever I am so pumped up I end up buying things I regret later. So this time, I hope that I will be calm and decisive choosing the phone.

Exciting right? Like all I can think about is getting a new smartphone right now.






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