B, Life was great until I realized there are people in my life I hold important. I actually have a hard time keeping people in my life...When I face any conflicts, I autopilot to "So this it. He/she is done with me." This is my anxiety. Those turbulent times, all I need from that person is a warm embrace. Affection. Understanding that I am flawed and I want a moment of truce. My peace loving attitude has avoided so many confrontations. It put me in situations I felt uncomfortable in. It made me a victim to manipulators. It has shut me up. You know, B. I always thought the relationships I have with people can easily be broken. I always leave one foot at the door so I can take the nearest exit when things are not in my control or too much to handle...If it was 5-6 years ago, the old me would've left, shut down, start afresh, wouldn't care as much leaving people. This me, however, I can't leave. I can't cut off. I have friends now that I didn't think I cared...