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 I turned 25 today. 

I don't know how much different my life will be like this year. A lot of changes for sure. 

I just hope I survive with my loved ones beside me.

A very difficult time, from 2020 onwards. Life just went upside down for some people. For some people it took toll on their mental health. For some, it went just marginally good. For some, it went so bad that they just don't know how to get back on their feet again.


For me, it somehow someway, saved me. Pandemic, changed me, something shifted inside of me, but for greater good. 

I learned to pick myself up. I learned to leave my bed. I learned to sacrifice my day sleeping. I learned to positively affirm myself. I learned to love myself even at the time of hate.

I learned to forgive and forget.

I learned people are struggling and fighting their own battles. I learned that it is important to be compassionate and open hearted towards everyone without giving them the power to hurt you.

Kindness is important but being boldly kind is equally important. 

I discovered things I have in myself, things I thought never existed inside of me, while getting out of my comfort zone and trying something new. It is important to try something new. 

I am grateful that I got to see the face of 25 with the essence of self-discovering and becoming me.

At this point in my life, I know. Life is not going to be anything like planned. Maybe a little, but mostly unplanned and chaotic. And that's the beauty of it.


I like my new age. I hope this year, I get to experience so much more.


Alhamdulillah for everything. 

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