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This month I have one of my cousin's wedding ceremony, and it's all I can think about.
What dress I am gonna wear, what makeup, what shoes, what accessories; just puts me in a festive mood, can't help it. I have two exams left, and I did fairly good in my management course which is kind of shocking, because I gave it my least effort. I am still two marks away from getting an A tho, but my teacher might just consider. I don't know when she's gonna upload the grades.
I don't do well in study gaps, they're pretty useless to me. I like being rushed, being stressed the nights before exams, It's when I actually get the things done. Study gaps just put me in a relaxed mood and I sleep like a pig...Okay enough of the book talk.
It's been drizzling non stop outside...Perfect weather to stay home and sleep.

These days, I can't find a decent thing to write about. My life is going kind of blunt. My university is in recess for finals, but I had to go check the script today and I spent hours after checking the script with my friends, because my car was stuck in traffic....One thing for sure, I don't hate my life so much when I am with them. They cheer me up. I think I got close to B and T this semester. Because I can finally be myself when I am around them. It's nice having this two people by my side...

I think I am just gonna go bed tonight...GOSH where's all my energy at?



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