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you spineless jellyfish! -_-


My friend.She's been a tease lately.And sometimes I feel like I don't know her anymore.What I knew about her was she's a straight forward, Grumpy (it's in her blood),hyper, shy(well not in front of friend's crowd),Hollywood freak,honest,fun but not a backstabber nor a bad influence. She's hanging out with me, all normal.But everyday after the college, when I get home, I somehow feel down and depressed observing her impressions toward me.May be because she doesn't know me yet.Unless she wouldn't do such things to hurt me or make me down.
I don't feel happy- go- lucky hanging out with her anymore.I don't know why.She was such a good friend of mine.Now she's driving away and I'm letting her.May be it's for the best.I can't afford her to make me less of me.
But the problem is that, I can't show off.I can't just avoid her and make her watch that.It's not me.And I have other friends too.So I can't just cut her off the group.That'd be the dumbest thing to do.
So I have to speak up to her. I have to tell her that "I don't hangout with bunch of people.And I may not have a crowd know my name but those few people in my life, they are pretty much special.
So cut me some slack, you bitch!"

 All this time, I thought she's similar to me. But trust me, You don't need to be all similar when it comes to friends.You can be all opposite and still be the best buds. I don't have any best friend in my life, for I'm an introvert.But I like to be all surrounded by positive people.who appreciates me for who I am.I'm allergic to negative ones.
May be I'm expecting much from her,maybe she's been like this forever.I just didn't notice. I don't know. I just want some peace.Her words are affecting me lately.I feel like a complete dumbass.
She once told me that You don't know people.You never went on a public bus.You are a slowcoach.
Yes I never got in a public bus for a ride.I don't have any idea how bad people can be. ANd  I don't wanna experience that.I'm insecure and sometimes I do act like a baby. But I'm gonna stay like this until the end.This is me.I always need a push to reach the end.I'm lazy,I'm dumb.I'm not here to get anyone to like me.
I took off my phone cover just because she told me it was ugly.Now I think that was the stupidest thing I've ever done.I should be myself, gee! why did I listen to her? 
She's so being mean to me.!! 
I'm thinking about a revenge.
Revenge is real fun.Muhahahaha :D 

 "You're SO Fake!! " 
I said "DUH!?" 
This happened when I took credit in something which I didn't participated in college.When our teacher called out the names,I stood out just for fun.People clapped for me, for something I didn't do, ugh those fools. :>
SO this was just meant to be a prank, my friend laughed too.But she...oh god, made a bad compliment outta this like I'm so much at fault and she's wearing a halo.pfft! 

 Dear my so called Friend,  Sorry I don't like Tom Hiddleston, or Benedict ca- whatever his name is.Nor the guys with British accent. EVen when all the bitches that you so admire adore them.I like Jensen Ackles even when you think he's a slut.And I don't have the patience to watch your favorite serial, SHERLOCK,even when I know if I watch it I'd like it more than you do.I just want the old "you" back.The one who used to be so bitchy and bossy yet my bestie :( now I have to pretend to be a friend of yours? (sigh) 

  

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