I am kind of having a hard time to collect my thoughts. I feel like I am in midst of a chaotic life situation. I think I get easily influenced by people and it is not a good trait. It especially does not help when you are taking an important life decision. The horror of making a mistake stops me from having experiences; having fun. You know what scares me the most? My family saying 'I told you so.' I simply don't want them to be right. Na-uh. Can't let that happen. I want to be the architect of my future. Here comes all these judgments and advises from family, which I highly don't appreciate. I wish they knew the context of my life. They barely know what is going on. What I like and what I don't. The fact that they still feel entitled to choose what's best for me is hysterical. In this world, the people I now hold close to me are people who are going through similar phase in life. I have infact turned deaf to people I don't show my true self to. There ...